Imperfect fatherhood

It’s really sad how I can oscillate between intense love for my daughter and also a lot of anger. Just a small event can spark me off. I still believe that as a four-year-old, my daughter is not expected to be perfect. But somehow I think I have a feeling that if I invest so much time on her, she should be. Or something crazy like that… so if my daughter starts whining, or acting up, especially after I’ve spent a lot of time with her, I lose my patience and get really angry.

Of course I have not hit her or anything. My way of expressing anger is by walking away or switching off… which I think is equally bad.

Anyway… more confessions of an imperfect father.

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In a world of clashing identities, one name/feature/description is just one in the multiple efforts to describe identity adequately. Thus this non-descriptor that I'm writing actually functions as a one-among-many descriptor. So how do I describe myself? I think I just did.
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One Response to Imperfect fatherhood

  1. Hello….I have three kids and I love them like crazy but there really are times when there’s nothing I like more than shake the life out of them. Parenting can be really frustrating at times but I would never replace it for anything else. I share your sentiments…..and I applaud you for being honest enough to share this.

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